Clarity About The Premie

"Could I Be a Blonde But Jaded Slut?"

I have to do a full post about Lala Boy before I stop talking about him. Even if the last posts make it seem like I’m blindly falling in love (while hinting on my stalker status), I only fancy this boy enough. Sort of how I’d expect it feel to cherish yet not place too much hope on a life support dependent prematurely born baby (premie). Not that I have fathered/mothered any real children…

There is enough friction to spark my interest. I do want to take things easy and meet new people. There are really some interesting people out there. There are still more cooks, weirdos, nuts and even sluts that I have to meet.

And without a time consuming relationship, there is also more time to spend with my friends. Some friends I’ve been hanging with tell me to cool it with Lala Boy or I’ll scare him. Others tell me that I need to intensify my calls, advances & my SMSes towards him. Whatever.

I just believe he would like to be romanced but is really a little all too jaded with the whole dating game. He doesn’t like too much attention & is shy with new people.

Possibly he doesn’t feel anything for me yet, but I’d really like to know more about him, even if just as a story sharing friend. Even I can’t have him as a shagmate or more, at least I’d like to hear more about him. What does he like, and why? Who are his friends & where has he been. Whatever he wants to tell me about.

There is still plenty of meat on the buffet & selecting a fine man really is more than just fucking around in the dark. If the wave length is bad, its all bad for everyone. Some people aren’t meant to be spoilt, in any way. I’m going to just enjoy him the way he is. With his charm, eloquence and keen eyed look. *Smirk*

Everything else in my life is just fine. Work is the expected bitch. I found myself frustrated at things that I can’t control. Time lines, deadlines, whatever, they all lead to expression lines. I’m not adding any lines to my face. I still haven’t found a good moisturizer yet alone the right way to keep a lover!

Yawn! Its all rather boring really....

Maybe I've been the problem
Maybe I'm the one to blame
But even when I turn it off and blame myself
The outcome feels the same
I've been thinking maybe I've been partly cloudy
Maybe I'm the chance of rain
And maybe I'm overcast
And maybe all my luck's washed down the drain

I've been thinking 'bout everyone
Everyone, you look so lonely
But when I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
I see someone else
When I look at the stars, the stars
I still find myself

Androjane ft Switchfoot ~ Stars