Babi! Bhuto! Setan!

Being Emotional Sucks. Cos I Really Want Closure.

I'm no longer *so* angry at Rubbery Ruggy for dumping me & feel like I just wanna get on with my life. The problem is, to do that I would have to sit down with him one on one & say what I have to say to him. Its nothing like "I hope you die in hell & maggots eat your brains you filthy bastard" but rather other more subtle things that need closure....

He being him & I being me, its very unlikely that I wil ever get a chance to say what I'd wanna. Especially the feedback I've gotten from some of the people who know us...

(The body of this post has been removed cos, its rather personal.)

I'd hold back the tears & let him speak his mind. If he wanted to.

I'd be a bigger person & continue with my life. There is more to life than finding a partner, there is more to life than being loved. And with that I'd get the closure I need. But there is so much more to life than being needy.

But to continue, after we sorted things out. I'd offer him something, sort of a peace offeringl, say Roti Babi. Sort of meat pie meets french toast. Its fabulously made with mince pork, carrots, mushrooms, onions, bread & eggs. He liked it the last time. But since its not to be, I'll have the roti babi myself. No denying it can be lonely, but its more liberating. I really don't need to hate him & curse him. I don't need the drama & wrinkles that come with it!

For the curious non-Malaysian's, Babi=pig, Bhuto=dick, Setan=devil. Its offensive in many different levels, so its the sort of curse you have to be really careful with.

We don't need, don't need, no haters
Just try to love one another
We just want y'all have a good time
No more drama in your life
Work real hard to make a dime
If you got beef, your problem, not mine
Leave all that BS outside
Mary J. Blige ~ Family Affair