ENSURE THE CHOICES OF TODAY DO NOT BECOME THE HEADACHES OF TOMORROW

That’s the stupid motivational sign on my uncle’s wall said. Can you believe it? This sign was telling me I can choose to avoid headaches! Is it that simple? Plan ahead and you won’t f*ck up?

I beg to differ! Sure I can choose not to eat expired food so I don’t get a stomachache, but I can’t control everything simply by choosing. Like earlier tonight I tried to make the first call to this guy with potential- sexy, charming & witty. Or so I think he was. I thought it was high time I picked up the phone & ask him out. I wanted to see him in day light without the beer goggles.

But before I continue, I must give a shout out to the men & women who have given me the gift of choice in the first place. Happy Merdeka Day! Independence is more than just a word! Its our freedom to choose. Even if some of those choices become the headaches of today. Anyways, the boy said maybe.

He said maybe. Is maybe good or bad? Did I sound awkward? Damn. Why did I choose to pick up that damn phone & call him? I am not always weird. Or am I? Damn it AJ, not everything is in your control! You can’t always be smooth & charming. Its ok to sound stupid. Even Teks told you so. Stop being a wuss.

Well I chose to make myself vulnerable. Choices can be lead the big headaches but they can also lead to better things. Celebrate independence dammit! Cross my fingers & hope that he chose a ‘good maybe’ & will party with me this Merdeka. Don’t you love Merdeka? It’s both the freedom of choice & a nice long weekend to party! Should I push the boy a little harder?

Ooohhhh shook me up so quickly
Ooohhhh hit me like a smooth breeze
Smooth like the air I take you into me
Smooth ~ Iio