Hello Love!

How’s life? From the pictures in your blog, you look very happy! Its great to see that you enjoyed Rodskilde.

I just was thinking about all the times we spent in together and all the crazy things we have done. I was thinking about us wading in the fish pond whiles drinking “Peach Schnapps” and it was plain crazy. I guess I’ve been doing some crazy things, many of which involve alcohol. Maybe I’m becoming alcoholic, but my low tolerance of alcohol makes it so easy for me to get tipsy. One glass of wine & I’m ‘happy’.

When happy I go out partying & drinking. The clubs still give me some excitement, especially when I go for the sole reason of having a good time. I’ve never found good men at the clubs & highly suspect I will never. More importantly I found a club which plays my favorite kind of music.

Last night (Sunday) I was in this club that played House (Trance / Techno) Music. Amazing! I really enjoyed the tracks they were playing. They even managed to take that horrible Rhihana song~ Unfaithful & remix it to sound decent! Sure the people inside weren’t the prettiest but I just enjoyed observing them. There was this bunch of short / spiky haired lesbian girls who were dancing by shuffling from side to side. They were so entertaining in their cute little boyish outfits! The crowd was so friendly but not very sleazy. I even cozy-ed up with this total stranger and just chatted whiles feeling each other’s arms / hands. But I didn’t go any further than that. I guess I enjoyed the touching but couldn’t be arsed to do the whole sex thing. Didn’t feel like it. Not with him anyway.

On Saturday I went out clubbing with many of my friends; some old ones & some new ones. I got the old bunch of friends to dance dirty, as we always did. The newer friends also gave the dance floor & their dance partners a good pounding. The antics were so cheesy but so inspiringly fun! Doing almost sexual dance moves on the dance floor made me laugh so hard. It was almost like making porn with out clothes on. Very funny & entertaining!

On Friday I went out with my friend The Goat to watch a Hong Kong Action Movie Called Dragon Tiger Gate. It was so corny & entertaining! Typical kind of kung fu movie where they have super kung fu moves & fatal romantic attractions. I just enjoyed the scenes & the silliness of it. I have been thinking of watching some horror movies too. I want to see what kind of corny yet scary plot they can come up with. Seen any good horror movies to recommend?

I’ve been having a great time lately. I’ve sort of decided to take things a little easier & enjoy my time alone. Be it cooking, clubbing, gym-ing, movies etc, having the company of my friends has been appealing & fulfilling. I’m not in the mood for sharing touchy feely emotions. I’m not in the mood to give sponge baths or bringing breakfast to bed. I can’t be arsed to invest in the constant well being of another person. And more importantly I am selfishly happy with what I spend my time doing. How does that cliché go? Love = hate = pain. For now at least I am better off alone.

I’ve been thinking of spending less time on my blog & more time reading, listening to music, watching TV & stuff that I want to do. I don’t want the blog to end up owning me or becoming me. It should remain an extension of my personality & not the other way around. Less time spent in front of the computer means more time to go out and meet people.

I highly suspect my spending so much time out of the house may also have to do with my sister’ new boy who is living with us. He is a nice guy & one day may be even win “The Super Nicest Guy In The Universe Award” but until then he is fucking annoying me!

He tries to talk and bond non-stop. It is very tiring to have some guy constantly trying his best to be friendly. There was once he showed me an message from his friend who is a girl who is having problems with her life (something about being crippled, obese, ugly & cheated on). He fucking wanted me to give advice! Like I am HER best friend and I don’t have enough shit to deal without taking on total stranger’s crap. He even barges into my room with the most annoying questions! He asks me about speakers, cars, butter cookies, & about every fucking thing he can think of! Even five-year-olds don’t ask so many questions. I can’t be fucking left alone!

But enough about my sister’s boy & more on my life. It would be wrong of me not to mention that I recently got an unexpected raise! It’s such a lovely surprise to have more cash but it makes me feel guilty for all the slacking I do at the office. I spend my half my morning eating breakfast, then reading the newspapers online, then reading comics & then going for lunch. After lunch I have a nap, read more comics, chat online & then go home. But admittedly when I do real work, I work hard. But when I don’t damn I’m lazy.

Then there is this bitch at the office who is giving me so much shit. I simply cannot stand working with her. She is so freaking lazy & is always getting others to do her work. I highly suspect she manages an online furniture shop website during working hours & steals fruit out of the office fridge just to piss people off. I don’t have any proof yet but I am keeping a close eye on that bitch. Rather than do my real work, I list out complaints against her, just waiting for the day she crosses the line, thus allowing me to bitch slap her with a long list of her shit she has done. There is no furry like a pissed off gay man!

Speaking of pissed off, I have started totally avoiding my last ex. I decided that there is no real point of trying to be nice to someone who hurt me so badly. You may think this would be easy but in a city as small as Kuala Lumpur, he often pops up like an infected puss filled pimple. Just now when I was watching an outdoor movie (X-Men III), he turned up with some new guy & some friends. I refused to even turn around to see his face. Maybe I am still bitter. Maybe I am still grieving. Either way I choose to look forward.

I choose to listen to my choice of music & eat where I want to. I choose my friends wisely & the men I sleep with even more wisely. I choose where my money is spent & how high I get. I choose to be physically / emotionally independent & I have never been happier!

Hoped you enjoyed the long e-mail. Everything isn’t peachy in my life but it will be okay as long as I can laugh it off. And if you don’t reply with an equally as long e-mail, I will pout & hold my breath until my face turns blue!

Love,
AndroJane.